Y.O.L.O.

Y.O.L.O.

[[You Only Live Once]]

I really used to think this was a stupid acronym.  

That only ppl looking for a reason to act dumb would use it.

& then I realized something.

I don't live that way.

I have a history of not playing it safe.

Jumping feet first without worry of consequences.

Of making bad choices.

But that's not me anymore.

I'm not perfect, but I am cautious.

Always striving to do the right thing.

To not repeat my past mistakes.

To be better.

& so I became somebody I didn't recognize.

Literally playing it so safe that I wasn't doing anything.

& I was judging everybody.

Including my bf.

& it was becoming a very negative thing.

So now I'm taking risks.  

But small ones that won't harm anybody.

Like my pink hair.

Some may question it, or judge me for it.

But I know it doesn't change WHO I am.

But the pink hair & the bright red before it has changed something.

My self-confidence.

I don't feel like this ugly wallflower anymore.

& that goes along with more effort put into me.

What a feeling it is to not hate myself.

To take pride in my appearance.

To know that I stand out & not because I'm fat & ugly.

But because I'm a little different.  & I'm beautiful :)

I don't care what people think.

My hair color is fake.

My nails are fake.

& when I have in contacts, my eye color is fake.

But that's only the outside.

On the inside I'm great.

Great mom.

Great girlfriend.

Great person in general.

& anybody who thinks otherwise just doesn't know me.

& there's nothing I can or want to do about that.

The people that matter know.

The people that are decent will take the time to see.

& the rest probably don't really matter in my life.

I'm happy with me.

With my family.

My relationship.

My spirituality.

My ideas.

My beliefs.

My personal little world!!!

& it's really only getting better.

(Y)ou (O)nly (L)ive (O)nce...

That's the motto!!

;)