They complain about everything from top to bottom, they discourage other people from being positive & they usually think they're sick all the time. I don't think they're sick though, I think they are poisoning themselves from the inside out.
I KNOW I have those days. But I do try to limit it. Sometimes when I catch myself falling into the "poor-pitiful-me-my-life-sucks" trap, I literally stop everything I am doing, look up to the sky & pray. I pray for God to help me get a handle on my emotions, I pray for peace with the situation that is upsetting me so much, I pray to remember why I actually am blessed & not cursed. & then I THANK Him for the opportunity to grow & learn through this stressful situation. Sometimes it's really hard to do that, but I do it anyways. Because I AM thankful.
So if you are apt to beat up on yourself, your day, your situation & the people around you, I encourage you to remember what I tell myself, negative thought by each negative thought:
1. "I make no money at my job." Thank GOD I am able-bodied enough to even work & I do not have to rely on others to provide for me & mine. We may not have much but at least we have what we need. Thank you Jesus!!
2. "I am fat & gross." I may not be where I want to be but how lucky am I that the only obstacle is ME?? There is not a mountain in my way between the fat me & the fit, healthy me. & even if there was, I have been taught that only a mustard seed of faith can move that mountain. I have no disability that keeps me from being the best me (physically speaking) & I am beyond grateful for that every single day. Even the days I suck.
3. "I am a terrible mom." I hear negative things all the time lately about single moms for some reason. My favorite? We get too much respect & have been put on a pedestal. Really? & yes, that came from someone that is not a single mom & is barely a mom yet considering she's still pregnant with her first child. I am not a terrible mom. My kids are clean, fed, housed & relatively happy. I say relatively simply because I have to say no to them, I have to discipline & I have to have boundaries. & they don't like that, but that's ok because they'll respect it & thank me for it later (I hope). I'm a great mom, not perfect, but definitely great because I do what I need to do to make sure they are taken care of, I want the best for them & because I love them so much that I sacrifice me for them on a pretty consistent basis. I am not supermom, I fall sometimes, I fail others & I knock it out of them park other days. I am doing my best & taking it day by day. I am not terrible or failing them...& neither are you.
I could go on of course but these are my 3 biggest negative things. I'm working on them.
Above all of these is the faith that God has it all worked out. I need to trust Him & His timing. Sometimes that's easy, sometimes it seems impossible, but if I know anything, I know that my God is awesome & He won't fail me, even if I fail him in my obedience. How amazing is that?
Ta-ta for now :)
